Shoebox Projects – Los Angeles, CA – May 2019
Affection As Torture is a performance piece exploring memories and trauma from a toxic relationship. The reality of an intimacy close to marriage; one that was active throughout my miscarriage. The jumbled memories and scraps of thoughts; the back and forth between I Love You and I Hate You. Wearing an old used wedding dress, I sat atop a sculptural throne I built out of found wood painted black with fabric scraps draped across the extended arms of the chair. In the background played an experimental sound piece I created using personal muse recordings, vocal segments from my journals and various recorded sounds including live music, radio static and a whistling tea kettle (listen below). Throughout the duration of the sound piece, I cut pieces off of the wedding dress and sewed on scraps of colored fabric using per-threaded needles stabbing into the surface of a ring bearer pillow. I wore the altered garment throughout the remainder of the reception.
Performance was part of an Artist Residency at Shoebox Projects during the month of May